Twisted perception

I don't really feel anything when i pen stuff, so normally writing stuff drones out all emotions I'm currently bound to. The sorrow ,morose feeling of unkempt desire pushed back into the depths of my mind. The sudden flashes of pain I feel kept at bay with my mind all caught up in blogging. I guess it works as some sort of way to vent put my feelings? though i really cant feel anything. Marg, if youre reading this, i still miss you, dearly.

RANDOM

Whoa, posting marathon. Haven't updated my blog in a while, not that you may have noticed, whoever you are. Cant say ive been real busy, maybe a little lazy, prolly confused at the moment. Nothin I cant handle, Nothin i didnt have to handle before. Pfft, heartbreak. so whats new? all the same to me

Conduit

Changed the backdrop, thought i'd go with a whole buncha chinese characters, and ironically prolly my weakest subject. Oh whatevs, not like im gonna be condoning chinese anytime soon, thought strengthening it would be a big bonus, anyways, chinese new year's just around the corner, AGAIN. Happy New Years and go rake in the cash...

Its 10 am,

life seems so blissful,

no school,

no homework,

my mind's not at work,

somehow I still don't feel good.....

I miss you guys....

how you make me smile,

how you guys make me laugh,

some times I'm pissed of,

but it fades in time,

wounds heal,

and harmony befalls............

heading off to Singapore,

feeling pumped,

kinda frantic,

what if we lose?

I'll never hear the end of it.

Mockery,

Eternal damnation!?

I'll keep my fingers crossed til then.

wish me luck.........

As much as i want to keep a blog, i dont really feel the need for one, i basically suck at expressing my feelings anyways......I personally think blogs are for the sucidally inclined, and I just dont have any pent up anger or frustration inside me that needs to come out..... but i guess if this benefits anyone, ill just write it for fun and stuff

Silver linings

A day or two away from a trip to Singapore.I have to admit, as worried as i feel right now, my minds buzzing with excitement. Its not like you get to participate in an asia pacific harmonica festival everyday..............