Twisted perception

I don't really feel anything when i pen stuff, so normally writing stuff drones out all emotions I'm currently bound to. The sorrow ,morose feeling of unkempt desire pushed back into the depths of my mind. The sudden flashes of pain I feel kept at bay with my mind all caught up in blogging. I guess it works as some sort of way to vent put my feelings? though i really cant feel anything. Marg, if youre reading this, i still miss you, dearly.